New word: EMOTIONALITY

Here are some thoughts I'm peddling... I'll trade them for some of yours! (edit: bear with me, this is important) It's a very loose agreement. "intellectual property" was never an accurate concept. (you don't know something just because i don't, and there's no such thing as stealing an idea. if you own it, your opportunity is to share it, not to sell it. mmmm but i guess you can pass a generous wealth of knowledge off as a secret, knowing that you are really only able to share so much at a time anyways. so go with the flow - " 🎶 i know something you don't know, i know something you don't know 🎶 " haa-haaaa and so forth. and then when the opportunity arrives - kablamazoids! Fill their mind till it blows.

i have to air out some laundry. Maybe you can come and color it, put on some patches, alterations, that kinda semi-auto-mattaphor. ...um it's about something that a lot of people don't want to talk about. Feel uncomfortable about. But everyone has. So it's no secret. Not at all.

Let's start by changing some language, and seeing if that helps. Oftentimes, it does.  And if I can change it, you can change it.  So let's just try to replace one big honking buzzword with another muthalovin buzzword. Here's an example we can all get on board with: two decades into the 21st century, it's not "global warming"; it's "climate change". Everyone knows that.

Power corrupts. Eats itself. Kindness is better.

Easier said than done, yes. But let's start by saying it. Maybe singing it together, that kind of thing. I'm gonna say it. I'm calling it "emotionality". In fact the moment that word built itself out of a want and a need and also an abandon, i fell in love with it. the word. e m o t i on a l i t y. It's not my word - I am giving it away to anyone who will own it. It's so basic, and so extraordinary. It's not a preference. It's a way of life. It's our way of life.

It doesn't subliminally promise bequeathing an inheritance of legacy to little versions of yourself... something that is miraculous, by the way, maybe the best thing in life most adherents would argue, but is also "not for everyone". Moreover it doesn't require that you pair-up for eternity with your soulmate, your counterbalance, the one that can hold your right hand in their left and feel comfortable.

You want to know how i got to this idea? See how this connects up with your own experience. I was wondering what makes me happy, and why in our dark and fettered past that's synonymous with the word "gay". Do you or do you not want to be happy in life? I'm trying to understand, maybe I'm daft, but isn't happiness in some form, in some quantity, for everyone? It just seems inhuman, inhumane, not to be. Happy. But that is "gay", and gay is something you're born with, not something you struggle to achieve just like everyone struggles to achieve... fulfillment? Self-actualization? Happiness.

But look at what people are doing with their new feelings. They keep stacking up those letters of alternative sexualities and I keep wondering when that jenga tower is going to fall over. LGBTQVC. So I'm building this: "emotionality". The first thing you need to be, i mean, to know (and be) about emotionality is, it is a spectrum and so much more. In fact, it is multi-dimensional. Whether or not we understand that from a distance, you are living in it.

Whether you strive to be happy, or you have to deal with a lot of struggle, it's true it's not all easy. Some corners of the map are dark, painful, seemingly inescapable. That is no one's preference. Even if misunderstanding or circumstance pinned them down, down there. And the hardest kindness to achieve is for someone who can't help themselves in return. I believe that is called charity.

Emotionality endquote is what unifies people who have divided themselves into categories of sexual exclusivity. That's not wrong! What those letters are trying to say is that people want to be understood, or at least identified, as much as they want to differentiate themselves. It's a complicated "game" and there are more than two "teams" now. But understand the rules: emotionality. Man or woman, gay our straight, natural or redefined, focused or diverted (that's polyamory and tbh i'm not sure how i feel about that) it's our emotions, yours and mine, that control how we interact and how we affect each other.

When we are similar, they are contagious. You make me happy, I make you happy, win-win. When we all get on board it goes viral. But there are some trolls out there in the world that want to keep everything moving, changing, want to spike your feelings with the complex poison/medicine. And there are some who desperately need that, so that's a lose lose lose win.

Here's the thing about boredom: it's not boring. At best it's hard to maintain and from there it's painful, exhausting, destructive. If you're not getting what you need, I say, you need to do something about it. I can tell we're all bored, cuz we keep posted to the unfolding worldwide bulletin board. Looking for what's happening next. But some of us are pleasantly bored, content with the closed envelope, not eager to push it. If you can be successfully bored, AND not boring, that's the definition of enlightenment. That's somewhere on or out of the dimensionality. emotionality. And if you can't handle boredom - you're in it for a wild ride.

Alright I came, I spoke, I'm all out of ideas. In the words of the late gay activist Kurt Cobain, "I think I'm dumb... I think I'm just happy."  (uh-oh.)